C302 I Can't Release My Depression
C302 I Can't Release My Depression
" I did find the notebook, but it wasn't for Jiang Ye to read it to me. I read every word in the notebook. Luckily I found this notebook. Otherwise, I could have rushed to the hospital in time to find you. "
Xia Xingxuan was stunned. She noticed Fu Jinchen's bright eyes. She waved her hand in front of Fu Jinchen's eyes and said uncertainly," Fu Jinchen, you... Did you see it?"
When he broke into the operating theater, Xia Xingxuan could tell that something was wrong with him.
Fu Jinchen grabbed her hands that were waving in front of his eyes and said, "I can see it, and I can see it very clearly."
Xia Xingxuan's eyes lit up, and she was surprised and happy. "When did it happen?"
"Why didn't you tell me earlier?!" Xia Xingxuan was so excited that tears started to sparkle. This good news was too sudden for her and she even doubted if it was true.
Fu Jinchen replied, "Before you said you wanted to go to America, my vision had already started to recover. I was just worried that my recovery was very unstable, so I didn't tell you immediately."
Xia Xingxuan was instantly dissatisfied. "You are going too far. Every day, I spend all my energy thinking about your eyes. Yet, you are not willing to tell me when your eyes are better!"
He smiled coldly and said, "You blame me for not telling you earlier. What about you? Aren't you still hiding it from me? You want to transplant the cornea to me? "
His tone became colder and colder.
Xia Xingxuan did not dare to defend herself. She knew that he was a person who was soft but not tough, so she pretended to be wronged and said, "Sorry, I know I was wrong."
"I know it is my fault to hide it from you. Don't be angry, okay?" She sat on his lap and he ignored her. She leaned in his arms and said good things.
She would give in to him. Once she used this method, he wouldn't be able to withstand it.
He saw that her attitude of admitting her mistake was very sincere, and he could not bear to be angry with her anymore. He wanted to calm down with Xia Xingxuan, but at this time, the words Shen Baixin had said to him in the operating theater began to ring in his mind.
That woman is your mother's murderer...
You actually fell in love with your mother's murderer. You have already lost your rationality for this woman...
The slight change in expression on Fu Jinchen's face puzzled Xia Xingxuan. She asked him, "What's wrong with you?"
Her hand lightly touched his face and he suddenly pulled her hand down. He looked at her with a gaze that she could not understand. She was inexplicably shocked by this gaze.
His actions were a little unusual. If it was in the past when she was so proactive, he would have been overjoyed.
Could it be that he still cared about her carrying him to transplant the cornea and making him mind?
The pain on her wrist made Xia Xingxuan come back to her senses. She gritted her teeth and said to Fu Jinchen with her delicate eyebrows, "Don't hold my hand like this. It hurts."
"Fu Jinchen, I really hurt. Can you let go?"
Her voice helped him regain some reason. His taut facial features softened a little, but when he spoke, he seemed a lot more unfamiliar. "Go back to your room and rest."
He started to change the topic, deliberately avoiding Xia Xingxuan.
She said, "What's wrong with you? I just apologized to you. Are you unwilling to forgive me?"
"I told you to go back to your room to rest! Don't let me say it again!" He raised his voice slightly.
At this moment, Xia Xingxuan seemed to have returned to the time when she first met Fu Jinchen. Fu Jinchen had talked to her in such a way at that time.
Was he getting impatient with her? Or did she really make him angry?
Xia Xingxuan did not pester him anymore. She sat up from his body and walked out of his study with a stiff back.
That night, Fu Jinchen did not go back to his room to sleep. After Xia Xingxuan went back to her room, she did not go out of the room's door. Lying on the bed, she could not sleep for the whole night.
Fu Jinchen's eyes lit up. This should be a happy thing, but because he had a conflict with Fu Jinchen, he could not release his depression. It was hard to be happy even if he wanted to.
The next day, she came out of the room and did not see Fu Jinchen. Mrs Lin said that Fu Jinchen went to work early in the morning and did not even have breakfast. Mrs Lin also told Xia Xingxuan that Fu Jinchen took a break to rest at home some time ago. There were a lot of things left in the company waiting for him to deal with. He might not be home for a few days once he was busy.
Xia Xingxuan knew very well that Fu Jinchen's so-called busy was just an excuse to deliberately avoid her.
Could it be that Fu Jinchen had completely angered Fu Jinchen because of the perineurium transplant? Was he going to punish her like this and not go home for the rest of the time? Was he going to ignore her if he did not see her?
She did not have the courage to call Fu Jinchen because she remembered that day in the study. When Fu Jinchen lost his temper, she was afraid that she would take the initiative to call him. He would still treat her with an impatient attitude, which would make it seem like she was asking for trouble.
Xia Xingxuan had stayed at home for the past two days. Without Fu Jinchen around, she seemed to be alone. Other than going to some boring movies to watch, the rest of her time was sleeping, eating, and day after day.
Old Lady Fu was delighted when she found out that Fu Jinchen's eyes could see her. She specially rushed over from the old residence to see Fu Jinchen.
However, Fu Jinchen refused to go back to Fu residence to see Old Lady Fu because there was a meeting at the company. He said that he would visit her at the old residence when he had time in the next two days.
When Old Lady Fu came to Fu residence and saw Xia Xingxuan looking dejected, she knew that something must have happened to Xia Xingxuan and Fu Jinchen.
Old Lady Fu asked what happened to Xia Xingxuan and Xia Xingxuan did not want the old man to worry about her. She pretended that nothing had happened but her cunning look was seen through by the old lady.
Since Xia Xingxuan was not willing to tell the truth, Old Lady Fu could only look for Mrs Lin to talk privately. Only then did she find out from Mrs Lin that Fu Jinchen and Xia Xingxuan had a conflict these two days and as for what kind of conflict it was. Mrs Lin also did not know. She only knew that Fu Jinchen did not return home for four days.
When Old Lady Fu heard this, she exploded with anger.
No matter what the reason was, Fu Jinchen couldn't just leave Xia Xingxuan in Fu residence and ignore her, right? Seeing that Xia Xingxuan had become so thin these few days and her face had become smaller, Old Lady Fu's heart really ached.
Did Fu Jinchen this brat forget that when his eyes could not see, who was the one who did his best to take care of him? If it was not for Xia Xingxuan taking care of him, could this brat recover so quickly?
Old Lady Fu went to the Glory World Group to find Fu Jinchen for this reason and had a good time with him. If it wasn't for the CEO's office door being closed, the disturbance caused by the old lady would have been obvious. It would not look good if the matter got out of hand if it attracted the attention of the company's employees and spread false rumors.
Fu Jinchen had used his work these few days to numb his thoughts. He wanted to avoid thinking about Xia Xingxuan as much as possible. It was not because he was busy with the company that he did not return to Fu residence. It was because he did not want to see Xia Xingxuan. To be more precise, he was afraid that when he saw Xia Xingxuan... He remembered what Shen Baixin had said to him.
He had fallen in love with his mother's murderer. How ridiculous was that? This woman was supposed to be the person he hated the most, but after getting along with her... He found that his hatred for her was slowly disappearing. He did not know when he had forgotten about his hatred for Xia Xingxuan. If it was not for Shen Baixin's words that woke him up, he would not have realized that he had fallen in love with her. Once again, he fell in love with her...
By the time he realized it, it seemed like there was no way to save her anymore.
He had indeed fallen in love with his mother's murderer. That woman, who should have been hated to the extreme and hated to the bone, had fallen in love with her without him even realizing it. This was ridiculous!
He tried not to return to Fu residence and did not see Xia Xingxuan giving Xia Xingxuan the cold shoulder. He wanted to avoid his feelings for her and think that this would be enough to face the dead Mo Yafu. He thought that by doing so, he would be able to let go of the guilt in his heart, but was it useful like this? Could he really ignore Xia Xingxuan?
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He could only do it for a few days, but he could not do it for the rest of his life!
He did not hate Xia Xingxuan. He hated himself. He hated himself for involuntarily falling in love with Xia Xingxuan. He hated himself for not being able to control himself.
It was as if all of this was his own fault. He deserved it. If he did not marry Xia Xingxuan to avenge Mo Yafu at the beginning, perhaps he would not be stuck between two women like now.